Today is what matters; no?

The past is what mould us to what we are today.
We always say what matters is the present and future.
Isn’t it?

But does the past really not matter at all?
Can I just pretend nothing happened and not be bothered?
I don’t know.
Suddenly, I just feel it does.

Or maybe, it simply does cos it’s related to people who matters.
This feeling in me sucks.
Big time.

Hello Weekends!

I have never looked forward to weekends more than today!
The feeling of anticipation just makes it so worthwhile!

Hello weekends! (:
And i hope time can pass at least slower, and I’m going to enjoy every moment of it; doing the simplest things with the dearest people!

Till then, enjoy your weekends too!

Day 1

We do the same thing every single day.
Before I met M, there was Calvin.
But we hardly spent quality times together.
It was just roaming in the streets, dinner, and back home.

But when I met M, we have been staying home, cooking our own meals, having dinner with our respective families, snuggling on bed having heart to heart talks. Even when we were out, the feeling was just different from that of Calvin. The way he holds my hands, the way he protects me, the way he nags at the usual stuffs, the way he asks for hugs, the way he frowns when I refuse to give him the hugs, it just makes feel I’m really treasured, and I really got to thank God for all these.

And today, I was having dinner at home, watching CSI on cable TV.
Just a few days ago, M was here having dinner, and we were watching CSI after that too. The difference was; he’s not here with me today, and somehow that feeling just felt very different.

It only pondered onto me ytd how attached we are.
Ever since we first, even before we got together, I dont know how it ended up like this, but we actually met everyday. And needless to say, when we got officially together, we’ve been tgt almost everyday. Every night, I had him to hug me to bed, wake me up; it’s either I’m at his place, or he’s at mine.

I like how he’d drive down after work to have dinner with me; and he does it without me saying anything. He’d just go, “I’ll see you after work for dinner alright?”
I like it how he says “good morning baby” every single day, be it via sms, calls or face-to-face. He says it every single day, and when he’s driving, he’d say it when he stops at the traffic light and give me my good morning kiss. He’s done so much that I’m so attached to him, and I’m really grateful.

Just one day of not being able to meet him made me think so much.
Haha, it was such an emo post.
But it was made me realize he means so much more to me than I thought. And I wished time could fast forward so I can meet him soon! (:

(:

There’s this unspoken happiness within me; I’ve been at this page wanting to type something for the past hour, but I just didn’t know where to start. There’s simply too much that he’s done.

He; who gives his 200%, without asking for anything in return, has left me speechless. I have never imagined myself meeting anyone like him, never imagined this someone to be there for me 24/7; going the extra mile just so I can have that extra 30mins of rest. Some may say it’s just the beginning; things will change after awhile.

Things changes, people changes, so does feelings.
And I know certain things may change in future.
I may have said those 3 words to my ex boyfriends, and I’m sure many of us are guilty of this. I’m sure at that point of time, all of us meant what we said. I have never felt this sure of any relationship before; that the love he showers will only grow and he’d never do anything unfaithful. I’ve never met anyone like M; anyone who shows me with the unconditional love that he does, and more importantly; anyone who loves my family the way he loves me.

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October 09!

I didn’t realize I have not blogged for a month!
The past month zoomed past damn quickly.
It was fun filled month with lots of surprises, outings, home cooked food, love and more love!
And seriously, I haven’t had this feeling in so long that I’m loving every moment of it! (:

M was “forced” to revamp his room cos of my presence now.
No more “rental style” room! Haha.
He actually moved his furniture around so it’d have more space for me to put my stuffs, and he knows I have to sleep facing the wall, so even after rearranging, the bed is still facing the wall, but erms, technically, it’s facing the window now, haha.

We went Ikea quite a number of times the past month.
To have meatballs, to kill time, and to source for nice furnitures!
And after persuasion from all of his bro, step and me, he finally decided to spend 89 bucks on very pretty curtains! Haha, I like! And so, now the curtains in all the rooms and living room are the same! (:

And they bought him new sheets and a quilt cover, which is oh-so-nice cos I like sleeping with thick covers! The room looks so much better than when I first saw it. I know it’d be perfect if Happy was around, M would be much much happier, and I know he still misses him, but things happen for a reason. Oh wells.

And I’ve sort of gotten use to the dogs. Hurhur.
Amazing that I actually got used to it after being terrified of dogs for donkey years. And Kee Lin came over a couple of days for mahjong, and his look, was the exact same look I had went I first went over! Haha.

His brother is a mahjong freak too! LOL.
After mahjong-ing, the next day he wanted to play again, and cos M doesn’t play and we couldn’t find another leg, we played 3 people mahjong (:

Mahjong is “family bonding!” Haha.
Everyone sits down together to play and to catch up, isn’t that bonding?
M just refuses to learn, I don’t know why. Roars.
Someday, I will convince him, I hope.

We had mahjong with Ashley and Kee Lin too a couple of days back, and it was such a “fruitful” session with everyone throwing in gossips. Kee Lin and me were seriously amazed by tons of facts, perhaps stunned is a better word. It was really an enjoyable session, and the night ended with supper! (:

Spending time with M and his family is such a warm feeling.
They are like my other family, perhaps cos Calvin’s parents weren’t in Singapore, and I haven’t had such feelings in a few years already. Oh, we had so much home cooked food!
M has cooked pasta for me at least 3 times! And he’s a superb cook. His Aglio Olio was fwah! Even my mum who usually eats relatively little finished the whole plate of it! Steph cooked us quite a number of times too! Just today, we were supposed to go to Bedok for Fishball noodles, and the store closes at 1230pm, so we had to be there earlier. But we slept like pigs after the mahjong and only woke up around 1 plus in the afternoon! Haha.

In the end, Steph whipped up pancakes with sausages, eggs and hotdogs.
I don’t know to call that lunch or dinner, but it was damn nice.
Perfect with maple syrup! (:

It’s weird how we don’t talk when we were working in the same company, and only at such circumstances do we talk. She’s not as fierce as she looks, and one thing for sure, she cares alot for M and me. We were eating at the coffeeshop ytd for dinner, and she was scooping my share for me, and it felt like she was an elder sister. And I didn’t talk to Ashley and Kee Lin too. And Val, though we talked but not that much. And now, wow, I think we talked most in the last few days compared to the previous times.

New friends and new company; these are things that really made my past month one of the happiest I had in the longest time ever. And for these, it’s all thanks to M. His footstep into my life has indeed changed many things, and I’m really thankful that the paths crossed (:

No secrets between us, and I’m glad we can share almost everything.
Everything happens for a reason, and whatever that is history, doesn’t matter.
What matters is the present and future, right baby? Hee.

And my mum loves him. The things she approves, the things she does, my gawd, I don’t think she has ever done it for any of my ex-boyfriends.

I’ve got to run for work now.
I will probably be back in a month’s time again!

For now, I think I want a Blackberry! (:
And oh yea, I just had to blog about this.
In the short one month, I have bought M 11 polo tees and a berms!
And he has gotten me nothing except his unconditional love. Haha.
The guy who doesn’t buy present for everyone on any occasion is gonna get one for me soon! (:

Back to School..

It’s going to be back to school again, soon.

It seems better than the previous one, at least I don’t have class on a Saturday, but why Thursday? It’s my OFF day! Boo. I’m starting to dread school though it has even started. Twice or thrice a week. Lectures, projects and the horrid exam in November. And I can’t afford to fail, so good luck to me. I foresee the next 2 months as busy busy.

In the last 7 days..
I’ve watched The Time Traveller’s Wife!
Not as nice as I thought it to be, and like the newspapers reviews, it could have been better. Rather than just disappearing and appearing acts again and again, the director could have developed the plot much better I suppose.

I’ve also watched G-Force and it was a damn relaxing movie! (:

I’ve been to Marina Barrage, courtesy of Brother.
Got to give him the credit cos he deserves it!
He came to pick me up though he was tired after a long day at work, simply cos I didn’t want to head home that early. And mainly cos he knew I wanted to go there since I haven’t been there before! (: That’s how sweet my brother is! Heh. Saw this 2 girls attempting those jump shots like for almost 30 mins? I bet they must have lost some weight! Non-stop jumping! Haha. And we started to talking about my sister, about how unglam her jump shots are on FB. Haha. And yea, she attempts like jump shots at camps, at outings, and at Marina Barrage. Haha.

I’ve been to East Coast Park!
Amazing! Cos I haven’t been there since the last visit with Thomas to check out his ROM location. And before that, I think it was like years ago? When I went cycling with Nicholas? M brought me here cos we couldn’t find Marina Barrage and we just wanted to find a place to chill -.- We had no idea we had to take the Nicoll Highway. And that was how we landed at East Coast. Best part was the breeze was so damn chilling that day, and there were no mosquito bites! (: So rare cos when I go to such places, I always end up having numerous bites. Haha. Sat there for almost 2 hours chatting. It’s such a joy to talk to M. He’s truely amazing Fellow Cancerian unite! I start to wonder if we’re twins. Haha.

I’ve been to Seletar Dam! Yes after so long!
With M again. Silly him came down after work to have supper with me.
And we chilled there from 1am all the way to 6 in the morning.
I actually went to meet him without any makeup, my hair in a mess.
I can’t believe I had so much guts that day.
Weird thing is, he said it doesn’t make that much of a difference.
Except that of cos, with makeup it does look better.

Why does everyone say so?
I seriously think I look HORRENDOUS without any makeup.
Totally like a ghost, pale and ugly, haha.
Oh wells.

And I had a bad sore eye.
Like really bad till the extend I couldn’t open my eyes.
It was so red, like those ink from red pens.
Had to cancel my Comex OT and went to see the doctor on a Sunday.
Luckily it wasn’t that expensive.

Doctor: So you need MC for today?
Me: Nopes.
Doctor: Monday?
Me: No need lah, I think the eye drops will be effective enough?
Doctor: I don’t think so. It’s SO red. You’ll need at least 3 days MC before it subsides.
Me: *Thinking if I really need 3 days MC for my sore eyes?* Okay lo.

And I left thinking the doctor was so cute.
3 days MC for the sore eye.
Though it’s the most serious sore eye I ever gotten, I don’t see why I needed to rest 3 days.

After a whole day of dripping eye drops every alternate hours, at the end of Sunday, it was still as red as ever. No improvement at all. And there was no way I could go to work in that state. I’d just scare everyone. Haha. Rested the whole day on Monday, rolled on bell literally till I was bored to tears. And on Tuesday, though it got better, it was still red. Just slight improvement? And it was then I realized how experienced the doctor was. Based on my condition, he knew I needed at least 3 days before the swell and redness disappeared. Kudos to him.

And oh, I just DIY-ed my nails (:
Am totally loving it the colour and glitters!
Though my previous one was barely 1 week, and I’m always visiting my manicurist instead of doing it myself, I just had the mood to DIY today! Spent 2 hours in front of the TV doing it, heh.

The past week has been a lot of new adventures (:
And it has definitely made me a whole lot happier.
I did the things I haven’t done, yet always wanted to do.
The kind of happiness I never felt in a while, and this happiness feels real.

Not sure what the journey is like ahead, but it’s something that I look forward to (:
Good night people!

Sunny Tuesday..

If there’s one word to describe me now, it’s gonna be blissful (:
And this kind of feeling is something I haven’t felt in ages.
And it’s exactly the kind of feeling I’ve been looking for.

You know who you are, thank you.
Especially for coming down after work at 1am for the chat.
Though you observe the wrong things, you’re forgiven, haha.
Taking time off to keep me entertained while I’m on MC, it’s appreciated, really (:

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My eyes are still red. Though it’s no longer swollen, it still looks very much infected. I never had a sore eye for this long, 3 days! I think I’m still gonna be on spects for the next week too. And I sleep really little these days.

I reached home at 6plus in the morning today after chatting for 5 hours, slept at 7am and I woke up automatically at 11am? And I wake up every alternate hour, cant really have a deep sleep. WHY. It’s so not me. Hurhur.

Gonna prepare and head to the PO with M later! (:
For once, I don’t have to lug the heavy parcels myself!

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Fluttering Flutters! :)

12th Sept
A day I won’t forget.
Thanks for everything you did, said and showed me.
Nothing matters more than these tiny little gestures.
Even if it’s just sitting down talking, even if there were moments of silence, I don’t think I have had such a feeling in a long time (: